So, it’s been ages since I last wrote anything. To be honest all I wanted to do once University deadlines were over was take some time out and concentrate on relaxing for a while.
After giving in my portfolio after my one and only all-nighter of the year, I spent the rest of the day in bed and caught up on some much needed sleep!
I’ve had a lot happen in the last month; I’ve started a new job, I’ve taken a two week trip to Tokyo, moved house, I’m graduating and I’m now entering into the final stages of show prep….jeez!
The trip to Tokyo, if you haven’t already been paying much attention to my Instagram, was absolutely incredible! I had the time of my life out there with my partner and could go on and on forever about the things we did/saw/ate/travelled to – but I’ll spare you that much for now and just give a few highlights.
My favourite places in the trip were the areas that most tourists don’t tend to visit, which gave me more of a feeling of authenticity. Not to say that I didn’t enjoy the more popular areas; we’ve nearly all been a tourist in London to see all the famous sites, so I guess it’s no different to that. But it was nice to get away from the crowds and visit places that were more popular with the locals such as Shima-Kichijoji, Mount Takao and an amazing drinking spot called Harmonica Yokocho.
We also spent time with two couples of two generations, so we could get to know more about the culture and really find out what it would be like to live in Japan itself. Being able to meet couples that were so different in age gave us some incredibly different and rewarding experiences, whilst also making new friends that we will hopefully keep for life.
The older couple – the Hosoda family – took us to see Mount Takao and make the climb to the top, half way up was an incredible old shrine with incense burning all day. We of course prayed for wealth and good fortune before heading to the top! They then invited us into their home for dinner, where we experienced traditional food and a house still with tatami mat floors and paper walls.
The younger couple – the Tsugawa family – showed us what it was like to live in modern Japan, where and how to shop, as well as showing us to cook traditional food in their home – giving us some amazing gifts upon our departure.
My partner and I decided a long time ago that once we both graduated, that we would move out there for a few years, and we went out there this time to really get a feel for it. Now it’s official, in a year’s time I’ll be living in Japan!
Now, onto prep!
Prep since getting all other stresses in my life out of the way is going amazingly well. Now I’m no longer doing late nights to keep up with deadlines or working 9-5 I’m able to spend real time prepping food that tastes good and completely focus on my training. So far the progress in 2 short weeks has been great, and I hope it continues.
I won’t lie, it’s still tiring and the mental battle with self-confidence, fatigue and hunger is difficult, but seeing the progress makes it all worth it.
Today I had my first posing class with Hayley Clough (@posingbyhayley) and though I thought I was going to be a clumsy dinosaur in heels, I actually managed to pull some poses off to the best of my ability and see the changes in my body even more.
Now it’s getting closer to show day, the intensity has sky rocketed and I’m training twice a day with at least an hour of cardio, along with reduced calories. I know that it’ll be worth it on the day, and I’m now getting super excited to be tanned up.
The weirdest part for me, though I’m looking forward to it, is being tanned, made up and on stage. It’s something that is the opposite of my personality. I’m usually a complete introvert and an anxious mess 90% of the time, but I’m sure once I’m on stage and the adrenaline kicks in it’ll be completely different. I don’t have the expectation in my head that I’ll place or win anything, that was never my intention as self-defeating as that sounds – but for me to go through prep, to stand on stage looking my absolute best and enjoying the fuck out of the day is all I want. To have the confidence to stand on stage in front of hundreds of people, saying that this is me and this is how hard I’ve worked…that’s all I want. For me this is personal. Anything that happens on top of that is just an added bonus.
Until next time.